Things lately:
I'm really missing the way Sara and I were when we were together. Every time I see her I want to grab hold and not let go. We've gotten so close and yet I can't help but hold some anger toward her for needing this breakup due to the emotional problems she's trying to deal with. I can't stay mad. I understand. Went through it myself. However it's annoying when she acts so girly and lovely towards me. Then again it's like a drug. Feels so fucking good.
I don't know how long I should wait. Have no idea how long it's going to take. Homecoming is this Saturday. She has not made a mention of wanting to go with me. Granted, I don't give a shit about the Homecoming dance. But it's my senior year, and I would have loved to go with her.
Lunches are spent at Sonic now with Sydney and Christina, who herself is having difficulties with Steven times fifty. Smoking, eating, talking some but mostly just taking a break and relaxing. Michael has been there quite often and is getting braver by the day. Recently he's been shouting out the word "fag" as I walk past him and punching the air after I leave Sonic. Granted the guy has reason to be pissed off. Sometime in the middle of June he proposed to his girlfriend. She had been chasing me and attempting to seduce me a few weeks before then. The night before he proposed I gave in, and she and I slept together.
She accepted his proposal and he found out about the night sometime later. As I said, the guy has reason to despise me (although I think he has more reason to hate his girlfriend, I don't know why he stayed with her) but if he's going to walk around school talking shit and SAYING he wants to kick my ass then he should do it. Drop the bullshit and take a swing motherfucker. There will only be three hits: me hitting him, him hitting the ground, the ambulance hitting 90mph to pick his ass up.
Other than that it's been a damn good day. Loved the rain. Heard word it's snowing in Flagstaff. I must see snow.
Looking forward to Rocky this weekend. MY FRIEND DUCKIE AND I ARE FINALLY GOING TO ROCKY TOGETHER! I still say that girl is the cutest fucking thing in the world. It'll be fun. Hopefully I get the good word about my cast application.
I'm really missing the way Sara and I were when we were together. Every time I see her I want to grab hold and not let go. We've gotten so close and yet I can't help but hold some anger toward her for needing this breakup due to the emotional problems she's trying to deal with. I can't stay mad. I understand. Went through it myself. However it's annoying when she acts so girly and lovely towards me. Then again it's like a drug. Feels so fucking good.
I don't know how long I should wait. Have no idea how long it's going to take. Homecoming is this Saturday. She has not made a mention of wanting to go with me. Granted, I don't give a shit about the Homecoming dance. But it's my senior year, and I would have loved to go with her.
Lunches are spent at Sonic now with Sydney and Christina, who herself is having difficulties with Steven times fifty. Smoking, eating, talking some but mostly just taking a break and relaxing. Michael has been there quite often and is getting braver by the day. Recently he's been shouting out the word "fag" as I walk past him and punching the air after I leave Sonic. Granted the guy has reason to be pissed off. Sometime in the middle of June he proposed to his girlfriend. She had been chasing me and attempting to seduce me a few weeks before then. The night before he proposed I gave in, and she and I slept together.
She accepted his proposal and he found out about the night sometime later. As I said, the guy has reason to despise me (although I think he has more reason to hate his girlfriend, I don't know why he stayed with her) but if he's going to walk around school talking shit and SAYING he wants to kick my ass then he should do it. Drop the bullshit and take a swing motherfucker. There will only be three hits: me hitting him, him hitting the ground, the ambulance hitting 90mph to pick his ass up.
Other than that it's been a damn good day. Loved the rain. Heard word it's snowing in Flagstaff. I must see snow.
Looking forward to Rocky this weekend. MY FRIEND DUCKIE AND I ARE FINALLY GOING TO ROCKY TOGETHER! I still say that girl is the cutest fucking thing in the world. It'll be fun. Hopefully I get the good word about my cast application.
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plasticeye:
kick his fuckin ass................then he'll shut his fuckin trap!!!! 
.........i dont like to fight anymore, but sometimes its the only way to shut dimb fuckers like that up! 
.........i dont like to fight anymore, but sometimes its the only way to shut dimb fuckers like that up!
plasticeye:
plus, every year i get more fragile. lol. ur still in ass kicking condition! 