camalus

Aug 6, 2020 on thay's photo
Aug 4, 2020 on rocky's blog post
Aug 3, 2020 on narublu's photo
Aug 2, 2020 on dolceonyx's photo
Jul 30, 2020 on felicity's photo
Jul 30, 2020 on corban's status update

I wish I could stop thinking about her. I can't. Times of quiet, my mind slips back to wondering, thinking, daydreaming. My pulse quickens. My body gets warmer. I find myself breathing faster. I feel cornered. Trapped. The walls closing in on me again. The darkness and terror that once plagued me threatening to break back in. I can't let myself respond. I am stronger...
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arninn:

hope you get well soon

Feb 3, 2016

Still green

But not green enough. 1-27-15

At peace

4-11-15

Heaven and Earth

2-4-15

I haven't much felt like going out lately so here's a summer flashback, re-imagined.

Squirrel!

It's squirrel appreciation day. Flashback from 4-1-15

Rest and Recovery

Some outtakes from my trip to Tacoma, 1-12-15

I went over to Tacoma for reasons and had some extra time on my hands so a short little adventure around Point Defiance was in order.

Megachilidae are mega-cute

One of my favorite family of bees. 6-23-15

Two things happened today that were kind of world shattering for me. First, I was diagnosed with severe generalized anxiety disor and depression. Second, as a mutual agreement, my girlfriend and I broke up today (while I waited to see the doctor). Things have not been going well for me. It's my hope that now I can keep moving forward towards a better me. That...
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h_man:

Hey man - hang in there dude. As you know depression is a very real and often times never validated by our family and friends. The general response goes something like, 'you look fine...why don't you just smile more' Shit like that. The best advice I can give you is exercise like your life depended on it. Lots of vigorous exercise. It will be better than any black box medication they'll try to prescribe you. The long term benefits of exercise for the treatment of depression is pretty well documented. My last year has been pretty rough personally too - exercising has literally saved my life and I've even threatened visiting @Royal in guam and teaching her how to play tennis :) Stay Up!

Jan 6, 2016

Winter has set in and my moods have gotten out of control. I purchased one of those light therapy lamps and started using it yesterday. I think it's working. I don't feel as down and morose as before, even smiling more for no reason in particular. Taking more steps tomorrow to get help, I can't keep living like this and ruining my relationships with people....
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