calypso

FUCK. I had a whole fucking journal entry written, and I got a 404 once I hit "submit."

Here's the jist of the post:

I auditioned for MTV's dating show "Next."

As always, I'm lonely.

I'm still in love with the stupid-fat-head-jerk-meaney-poopy-face.

Despite my despaired and pointless love, I don't want to feel any other way. I don't want to not love him.

I get to see my brother this weekend, but afterward I get to slap him on an airplane to Philadelphia. This kid (15) is the light of my life, and at times, the only thing keeping me going.

And, uh, yeah...

Tell me something good, please.