calypso

Completely disregard my last post. I was stupid, naive, and full of nothing but wishfull-thinking. Having talked to my brother's father, my mom, and my step-dad, I'm so much better.

My mom told me, "Don't settle for anyone."

When she that, it fucking hit me like a ton of bricks. If someone isn't willing to give me all they have, if they aren't willing to be faithful, they can't really love you.

I feel LIBERATED. I'm free from all the bullshit, all the lies, all the laziness that came with having him as a boyfriend.

He doesn't love me. I have to keep telling myself that. If he loved me, he wouldn't fuck around on me, he wouldn't rip my heart out and take a shit in the gaping hole that remained.

If he wants me, he'll put in some fucking effort and come after me. I've done all I can. I've tried so fucking hard, and have not had my efforts returned in any way, shape, or form.

Granted, I'm heartbroken. I don't want to leave him, but I don't really have a choice, do I?

Then again, once a cheater, always a cheater, right?

Karma. You guys are right. Whether it's tomorrow or ten years from now, he'll kick himself in the ass over how he treated me.

I'm great. I'm charismatic, charming, loving, smart, savvy, intelligent, hot, funny, and just about everything else. A guy should thank his lucky stars if he has my love.

I love fiercely, and wholly, with all that I posess. I demand the same in return, and I deserve nothing less.

Ah, liberation.

So who wants to be my new boyfriend? Please send your resume to calypso_suicide@yahoo.com .

I date to marry.