callisto

when days never change and its 3 years later


I'm going to do a proper year end update in the next week or so....

but i felt this day needed marking for significance

3 years ago today I got a single phonecall that bought my entire world crashing down around me. I really thought my life was no longer worth living. Everything i loved and cared about it seemed had either turned its back and/or kicked me in the teeth. People I thought were friends turned out to be some of my worst nightmares and i really couldn't see a way for me to be happy again.

Yes yes, all very melodramatic. (takes a theatrical bow )

I can't say it was an easy road, and i certainly didn't make things easy on myself with the way i thought and felt. But when i thought about all that has come to pass. The recent year or so. The people i have close to me. The way i feel about so many things... and i can honestly say that right here, right now, i don't think i could feel happier. I know i'm loved, i have a whole shit load of wonderful experiences and i also know its far from over. Something that if you'd told me this time 3 years ago i wouldn't have believed even if you'd put me in a time machine and showed me it for myself

So basically i think i have to say thank you. Not just to the sweet people i know and love. But thank you to the arseholes as well. Cos if you hadn't revealed exactly what a bunch of backstabbing selfish cunts you truely were, I probably still would have been kissing your asses and running round like a moron on your behalves.

oh yeah and merry christmas to you all


(and that CHRISTMAS btw not all this fucking ridiculous pc happy holidays bullshit)