calgoth

another night, another dream. i didn't wake up till my boss called me 20 mins. have i was supposed to be at work. I'm probably going to lose my job if i keep doing this. but its so hard to pull myself out of the dreams in the morning- into a reality that is quite different from my dreams- where the person that used to mean the world to me hates me to no end. my current g/f is being very understanding and helping me as much as possible, but i feel near my wits end. i stay awake late into the night to avoid sleep and when i finally give in, i dream and can't wake up for the life of me.

damn- i just looked at some more of my journal posts- i bitch way too much. lol