calebs

so i read your posting about moving to Az for a girl. I've done that, but from Houston to Chicago,
It's hard to imagine that there's someone so close and so perfect, but then they couldn't be more far away. It sucks, and hurts, and everything you think of brings you back to her. And non one could possibly imagine the pain.
I think everyone in their life, in order to make life worth living has to take that risk, that leap of faith... sometimes it works and sometimes... not so much.
Yeah, you'll get that 'you need to move on' bullshit. because eventually you will move on, and one day the sun will shine againl. I say hold onto your pain, make it worth while and write it all down... pages and pages of how confused and angry and sad you are. Thats the only way to heal properly, at least i think
Mine's name was Melanie, and I did embarassing things that I hesitate to tell my best friends, just to try to be/stay close to her.
I was a commercial diver... uber-macho type setting, and for a month i was on the verge of crying and sick to my stomach the whole time, it was tough, it lasted a long time. (Which is why I was able to log so much time underwater... so no one could see me.)
Eventually you'll come to realize what you did, and how committed you were to her, that you'd do anything for her/ to have her back, if she only knew.... but then if she could do this to you she doesn't deserve what you have to offer... and that there is someone who wants so badly what you are willing to give and what she could just throw away.
You'll be stronger for this.... ya know the quote... 'if it doesn't kill me.... it makes me stronger'
So stay strong, cry a lot, write a lot, goto the gym a lot...and decide if AZ is where you want to be, or head back to the burgh or some other town. Goodluck, I home this was a tiny bit of help. and that it made sense and wasn't just some sorta crazy rambling. lemme know either way

I read your advice article about moving to AZ. That really sucks, man. I'd advise you to move on. If she's just going to play with your head like that, she isn't worth your time, and she'll probably do it again.

Good luck to you in AZ. I hope everything works out towards your best interest.