cakemix

quick update before i hit the gym.
i've gained a few more kilos back than is acceptable so need to go work those babies off!
today is supposed to be upper boday...
...but i'm already sore from yesterday and can't think of what i did, except crank the crosstrainer up
(this one goes to eleven, lol)

i'm also hitting the gym as mood-wise i'm struggling and i find working out really really meditative.
besides the middle of the night when i can't sleep it is about the only time that i get to read books on my kindle as well, because the rest of time i'm awake is spent on here or crocheting my little fingers off. oh, i finished all the CUNTHAMMER banner letters, and have been having great fun playing rude word scrabble with them! sometimes i do wonder if i could crochet instead of read while on the crosstrainer...but i can just imagine the yarn going flinging and my ending up yarnbombing myself to the machine!

but yea, anyway, emotionally wrecked lately.
still can't be bothered with my boytoy, found a nice lady to woo - but fucking hell women are difficult.
think that is why i'm always just fucking men as you boys ARE SOOOOOO EASY, lol.

seriously though, i seem to have alot of built up rage and i'm worried because i keep going off. it's never unprovoked, but the fall-out is so hard to deal with...i miss my asshole violent alcoholic scando, but i can't be with him - and it still hurts.


Cunt bunting by cakemix, on Flickr