cakemix

no mash up monday mayhem for me tonight...

i am sitting on my sofa sipping champagne with my puppy on my lap watching treme with a load of clothes in the washing machine - ALL my clothes - as i've lost so much weight i have nothing left and even when its all dirty it barely fills one load. finding it ironic and hard to watch treme while getting ready for stockholm as that is where i was when katrina hit and i've not been back to new orleans since then. i have been back to sweden ALOT though.

i've had the best weekend of my life there.

unfortunately the toyboy that i spent it with will not be coming with me. we are not together - again. today was the first day we met up since he moved out last week, his house arrest being up and all...it was hard. he took the puppy for me so i could go to the gym but instead i drank tequila and pink wine and took a nice bubble bath.
and tried not to cry. while feeling like i've been stomped on the chest and kicked in the gut.
instead of hit in the face with a belt and kick in the jaw.