cake1

this seems fitting....a little something i wrote in a fit of depression that is quickly leaving me...


i woke up coughing
choking
reeling in my own infested thoughts
bleeding out my ears
i looked down at the long lean
precise almost elegant gashes at my wrist
and i smiled at the pools of blood gathering around my waist
flowing across my belly
a river between my legs
i imagined the rivers flowing
beneath a beautiful sunset
a pearl necklace around my neck
elegant and white in a sea of satiny red mess...
a sea of satin....had i not done this
had i not felt this
would have been a dress.
it would have been my wedding
but girls like me don't get married
and if we do we certainly don't wear white.