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My dog Maxie died this morning. I am so heartbroken.

I got Maxie when I was seven years old. We adopted her from a family that couldn't keep her anymore. She was the most precious labrador puppy. I grew up with her. I loved her so much and she loved me. When I used to cry she would nudge my chin and lick my face and sit in my lap. The last time I saw her she slept next to me. She was the sweetest dog ever. If I have ever known unconditional love it was from her. I was not with her for the last years of her life and that hurts so bad. I couldn't even be there when she died. Knowing that I will never see her again is the worst feeling in the world. All I can do is hope it is that she is at peace.

I've been crying all day. My head hurts and I'm exhausted. I feel like a part of my childhood has died. It makes me realize that nothing is forever and it's thats the fucking brakes.