cait

I've been updating like crazy lately!

I'm just really fucking bored and lonely right now.

I need to get away tonight, and I was hoping I could take refuge at my fuck buddy's house, but I haven't talked to him in so long. I guess I'm not really upset about it, I don't really even like him that much. I knew right away that I shouldn't get attatched, he is kind of like a stray kitten that I know I would have to give away, but it still sucks not having something to cuddle.

My roommate's friend that I was friends with in High School is coming over tonight. Not only do I really not like her, but I've realized that being around her depresses me a lot. She used to be a really kind wonderful person, and she had a lot of problems, mainly with her family, but she was really genuine about it. Maybe once in a while she was slightly self-oriented, but it was an understandable survival tactic.
After high school, she left her home life to live with her rich grandparents, which is understandable, but now she has turned into a mall girl who appears to shop away her problems. That streak of selfishness has turned into her personality, and she has become self-righteous and self-centered. I know I'm judging her pretty harshly, but she just makes me realize that any genuine person can throw it all away when they have a credit card

I know I'm not so great myself, but I promise you that I'm doing the best I can....

I just wish someone would understand.