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Monday Jun 14, 2004

Jun 14, 2004
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"I think somebody loved me once, but I can not remember why"

So I went to see a movie tonight, which was a good movie, but I feel like bitching......as we were leaving my friends made it out a lot faster than me, and as I was slowly catching up I ran into my ex (the one I pretty much always whine about) with a date. He stopped me to chat a while, but that was the last thing I wanted- SO akward!
Its frustrating seeing someone you were in love with, and closer to than anyone else for so much of your life, and having some stupid "whats up?" conversation.
I don't want him back, and I know we have both completely changed, but I'm just really lonely and I wish I was better at keeping exes as friends.
In happier news I went bowling with SGKzoo for the first time in forever. I had to leave early because I work really early tomorrow though frown In fact, I should be sleeping, but instead I'm sitting here finishing up my triple black.
Sometimes coming home to an empty house isn't the best frown

"I know the pieces fit cuz I watched them fall away
mildewed and smoldering
fundamental differing
pure intention juxtaposed will set two lovers souls in motion
disintegrating as it goes testing our communication

The light that fueled our fire then has burned a hole between us so
we cannot see to reach an end crippling our communication.

I know the pieces fit cuz I watched them tumble down
no fault
none to blame it doesn't mean I don't desire to
point the finger
blame the other
watch the temple topple over.
To bring the pieces back together
rediscover communication.

The poetry that comes from the squaring off between
And the circling is worth it.
Finding beauty in the dissonance.

There was a time that the pieces fit
but I watched them fall away.
Mildewed and smoldering
strangled by our coveting
I've done the the math enough to know the dangers of a second guessing
Doomed to crumble unless we grow
and strengthen our communication

cold silence has a tendency to atrophy any sense of compassion

between supposed lovers
between supposed brothers."


VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
wolfj:
I hate bumping into ex's. When they are with someone and your alone makes it way worse. I usually never stay friends with ex's. I'm trying it now and it's causing major problems. I think it's just best to go your separate ways.
Jun 15, 2004
mikael:
it's always difficult. they say it takes twice as long as you were together to truly get over someone. I think that depends on the someone.
Jun 15, 2004

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