cainroth

And I used monster to look for a new job, and actually found some I liked! So I completely salvaged a crappy day!

Now if a cool and interesting female emails me in the next two hours to start a freindship+ (perhaps an attractive tatto artist, or someone with really great eyes, Im not suggesting any one in particular ) <innocent as possible look on...
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Yup, Ice cream good. Made me feel all better... NH, highest Ice Cream consumption per person, and proud.

And I tied a cherry stem with my tong for the first time! Hows that for tong talent?

Nothing much to do today. Trying to entertain myself by reading random live journals and stuff.

Im going to quite my job soon and look for a new one. Every time I think that my life is going the way I want it something happens to make me have to restart it. Then again it has been a year at the same permatemp job. I...
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Hi,

Im invisible to women. See you didnt even notice me. You didnt even read this.

I dont know why. I dont know what to do to change, not that I really intend to. Im going to sneak up on some fantastically wonderful girl and shes going to fall for me and be like Wow, where did you come from? And all you other people...
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Ive been doing lots of thinking today. The idea of having sex with someone that I dont really know isnt all that interesting to me. I think that I was sort of operating under a few of societies forced notions about what sex should be like. I enjoyed sex with Tracy, because of the relationship. So these days I guess Im not really looking to...
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Mmmm... Drunken fun last night. My freind Crazy Tyler lives in the perfect house for a horror movie! We had beer, people ranging from 19-25 and crappy movies... But no murders. Oh well. Maybe next time.

I was dreaming that I was in bed and my daughter was waking me up. I had a house, and wife and daughter. Im in bed and looking down at her, shes real young. I think it may be the first day of school for her. Thats why shes up and dressed before we are. Shes not afraid of going. Shes afraid of being late....
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I had an amazingly vivid dream last night. No sex, but lots of love. I destribed it in my live journal, so wont go into it here. Im just about to turn in for the night, and Im hoping that the dream will continue.

Well. Cant get a link to the site, so you'll just have to be in suspense until I can post it....
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Rembering...

Girls I liked with Tinfoil crowns.
Basments and drugs and teach dogs tricks with Dorritos. Tarrot cards and long ago moments that I regret.

I'm sorry I couldn't... I wish I did.

Those days are long gone. So much regret...

Regret hits like a physical blow. Muscles tense, nerves tighten; the body clenches as if recoiling from an uppercut to the abdomen. Along with...
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Ok, WTF? Now its hot a gross out, and Im still lonely. It feels like I have one or two good days and then three or four sucky ones. Two steps forward three steps back.

I need a girl, I miss the cuddles.

Blah.