Its a very retail Christmas.
It just doesnt seem like the holiday for me. I went and sat and looking in at the tree. But you know, I just dont feel it. At the same time it doesnt feel like just some random Wednesday either. Maybe its just that it got here so fast. I didnt anticipate it.
Grace Li should be here at 9:30 tonight. Or at least thats when her plain is arriving. Ive met her already and I like her, shes cool. Im glad my brother found someone so cool. And she just fits well.
Im glad that hes getting the relationship that I wanted and didnt get. Im happy for him. It would be nice to have someone for the holidays. It would be nice to have someone to come over. But there are only fantasies of people in my mind. I dont know a single real person in this world that I would like to have here with me.
For some strange reason that helps a little.
Look at me going on like a whiny little bitch Well Im sleepy. Food Coma is setting in. Consumerism, Overeating, and Returns the day after. Yup.
It just doesnt seem like the holiday for me. I went and sat and looking in at the tree. But you know, I just dont feel it. At the same time it doesnt feel like just some random Wednesday either. Maybe its just that it got here so fast. I didnt anticipate it.
Grace Li should be here at 9:30 tonight. Or at least thats when her plain is arriving. Ive met her already and I like her, shes cool. Im glad my brother found someone so cool. And she just fits well.
Im glad that hes getting the relationship that I wanted and didnt get. Im happy for him. It would be nice to have someone for the holidays. It would be nice to have someone to come over. But there are only fantasies of people in my mind. I dont know a single real person in this world that I would like to have here with me.
For some strange reason that helps a little.
Look at me going on like a whiny little bitch Well Im sleepy. Food Coma is setting in. Consumerism, Overeating, and Returns the day after. Yup.