cainroth

Today has been one of those days. Nothings working out right, feeling crappy, sat at the store for an hour before someone came to open it. At least I got paid. But then I never really got any work done all day. I was the only IPT member on and didnt get any shelving done at all. Then clocked out 30 minutes early by mistake.

My good intentions were misinterpreted and it made me feel terrible, one that someone could think that I was that sleazy, and two that I am so bad at sending the messages I want to send to people. And Im lonely today. No friends to hang with, nothing really to do. Sunday is getting to be a regular day for depression for me.

Ive been really down on myself lately, because of this whole inability to interact with people in a positive and productive way. In a way it would have been better if I had never gotten together with Tracy. At the time I was at a point in my life where I was used to the loneliness. And now its hard again.

I have more regrets in my life than successes. I wish I was a super cool person and was happy. I wish I could do fun things with interesting people. Why cant I? Whats wrong with me? What am I missing?

Cheer me up?