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The ring thing has gotten me thinking

It makes me wonder what significance this ring held for the person that owned it. Did it mean something to them? A ring is a symbol, what is the meaning behind the symbol that I am now wearing? What story goes along with this item?

That which I truly need always finds its way to me. My Dad has asked me how it is that I live my life the way that I do. Stuff has always just found me when I need it It has always mystified him, because it seems like things just come my way and I never have to work for them. Not really to the point where it seems like Im breezing through life, but just that I end up being laid back about everything.

So really it begs the question What do I want? Right now thats fairly easy to answer. I want someone to spend some time with, curl up with under a blanket under the stars, and just have a good conversation. Thats what I want in the here and now Long term I want a good corporate job, where I can be myself and fit in just enough that they realize that to fit in I have to make them think about what in is. Health insurance, and a house, and some spare cash reserves would be nice. A job that I if not enjoy, then at least feel that Im good at.

The idea that is sort of congealing in my head is: What if reality as we know it is a big machine that is there to give us what we want? Basically, there is one good thing that came out of the breakup with my Ex. And that is the book Conversations with God. I focus more on that aspect of it than the god exists/we are all gods stuff. The thought that reality is permeable and shaped by will. And not in the I want something so I do it sense, but in the spiritual connection sort of way. Consensual reality. Enough people believing something makes it true.

So watch be careful what you wish for, you just may get it. Happens to me all the time.