I really enjoyed the Midori concert the other night. She is just amazing, the way she gets so far inside the music. She and her violin are one, and it is hard to tell which the real instrument is. The seats were at the very very top of the theatre, so it was hard to actually see her face, but, the sound was stupendous. The baffling from the stage to the ceiling and up to me did its job in a magnificent way. She is an outstanding performer and teacher. I had a lot of time to think and reflect on my life and what it is I value and need. I think I have a better grasp of why I feel and felt the way I did that night. I have been really been missing Kate this weekend. It seems silly to miss someone you do not even really know, this much. I do though and it pulls at my heart in a way that is at once familiar and yet unexpected. I know I am just lonely and her talking to me has meant so much. I really like her though. I think we could be great friends. She reminds me of someone I used to know and be in love with. I do see her though, and not someone else. I am gong to an Anti-Packer party today. This should be fun. I am looking forward to it. Which reminds me I need to go buy some chips at La supertienda Latina? I really need a good masseuse today. My bones are knurled and my muscles are just so tight and aching. I am thinking of my brother today. I really need to write him a letter, no matter what happened this fall, he is still my brother and I need to make sure he is ok, and that when he comes home we will be OK. I love this new ARIA cd I just bought. It is so blasted cool. I can see myself dancing to it in a club. It would be off the fucken chain man!!
I think therefore I am. As a man is in his mind, so is he. We make our own realities. We see what we want to see. We do that which is the natural extension of our thoughts and feelings. We all are connected. And the connection is unbroken. I love, love, love this Aria collection. I highly reccomend it to anyone who loves classical and electronica. It is rockin my sox completely off.
Babysitting Principessa again, as her mother is out at church. I have never met a dog who, being so small, can make so much noise when she is lonely or upset. Little 2 pound dog, 600 decibal BARK!!
Che Bellezza! Just overpowering over whelming and thaumaturgic. Realities in cotton and striped stockings. Ritualistic trees and talismans. Ave Maria!! Amen!
Little round about twisting of your head.
The eyes so wide and sweet.
The mouth so curious and sly.
Waiting to be noticed, to be petted.
You curl up in a ball,
Sluicing away my will to work,
You have taken it all.
I can not but help smile,
Acquiescing to your preternatural--
power over me.
All the while,
you work your way past my defenses,
and into my--
Quintessence.
You are the answer,
The essence,
of my longing and comfort.
I seek you in the middle of the night,
scoop you into my arms,
and love you,
for your lack of ...
Fight.
I accept and am rewarded.
I give you all my effection.
You give me Life.
no one can protect me from the...
pure denudating puissance you wield.
I am un-done,
I am immured.
I willingly give my life in your service.
I am unquestionably your guardian,
And your retainer.
Mille Grazie mia lodestar.
Edit:
Free Wheeling Verse
I am at arms length.
I try to draw near, but only get pushed back.
I will see you in the morning.
But, my heart sinks at my own derision.
I lack only courage..
Certainly not vision.
I will keep the fantasy alive,
And in its' presence, I will survive.
The knowlege of your bond is my jailor.
I see you in all your beauty.
I feel your smile shine upon me.
I see the shimmering brown of your eyes.
They slay me with their awesome power.
I think of you when the hour..
Is late, too late.
I must not let my heart fantasize.
For never shall you be mine.
I am bound by honor.
You are taken up with a promise you must keep.
I dream of you while awake.
I feel your presence while I am asleep.
I know the glory of you.
I know your bones.
I would give you the comfort that you need.
But, alas tis not to be.
For far into the future will you be blessed.
I will be undone.
I will be undone.
SAE
I think therefore I am. As a man is in his mind, so is he. We make our own realities. We see what we want to see. We do that which is the natural extension of our thoughts and feelings. We all are connected. And the connection is unbroken. I love, love, love this Aria collection. I highly reccomend it to anyone who loves classical and electronica. It is rockin my sox completely off.
Babysitting Principessa again, as her mother is out at church. I have never met a dog who, being so small, can make so much noise when she is lonely or upset. Little 2 pound dog, 600 decibal BARK!!
Che Bellezza! Just overpowering over whelming and thaumaturgic. Realities in cotton and striped stockings. Ritualistic trees and talismans. Ave Maria!! Amen!
Little round about twisting of your head.
The eyes so wide and sweet.
The mouth so curious and sly.
Waiting to be noticed, to be petted.
You curl up in a ball,
Sluicing away my will to work,
You have taken it all.
I can not but help smile,
Acquiescing to your preternatural--
power over me.
All the while,
you work your way past my defenses,
and into my--
Quintessence.
You are the answer,
The essence,
of my longing and comfort.
I seek you in the middle of the night,
scoop you into my arms,
and love you,
for your lack of ...
Fight.
I accept and am rewarded.
I give you all my effection.
You give me Life.
no one can protect me from the...
pure denudating puissance you wield.
I am un-done,
I am immured.
I willingly give my life in your service.
I am unquestionably your guardian,
And your retainer.
Mille Grazie mia lodestar.
Edit:
Free Wheeling Verse
I am at arms length.
I try to draw near, but only get pushed back.
I will see you in the morning.
But, my heart sinks at my own derision.
I lack only courage..
Certainly not vision.
I will keep the fantasy alive,
And in its' presence, I will survive.
The knowlege of your bond is my jailor.
I see you in all your beauty.
I feel your smile shine upon me.
I see the shimmering brown of your eyes.
They slay me with their awesome power.
I think of you when the hour..
Is late, too late.
I must not let my heart fantasize.
For never shall you be mine.
I am bound by honor.
You are taken up with a promise you must keep.
I dream of you while awake.
I feel your presence while I am asleep.
I know the glory of you.
I know your bones.
I would give you the comfort that you need.
But, alas tis not to be.
For far into the future will you be blessed.
I will be undone.
I will be undone.
SAE