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The Thing Is....Continued


The thing is that I am moving forward on a great many things, and yet, I feel the crush of it all. It all comes down to money. If I had the money to pay off my student loans, then I could apply and go to school at Phoenix On-line. If I had the money I could pay off the folks that Virgil owes, and I could get the car off my mind. If I had the money, I could move into my own apartment, and yet, make sure my mother can support this place. If I had the money, I could take my friend Lisa out to dinner, and not worry about how much it costs. It is after all her birthday.

I called into work and took a personal day. I felt like I need to do that. And it was fine with them, as they are trying to cut hours as it is. So, all in all it has been a good day. As, I have contacted Rawhide Boys Ranch, Great Lakes Higher Education, The Federal Student Loan office, my advisor at Phoenix On-line, Virgil's father, Rodney, and most importantly Lisa.

I am going out to dinner tonight. I do not have the money to pay, but, I am going to do it anyway. I will just have to use what little room I have on my credit card, and then make a triple payment at the end of this week. I am moving forward, no matter what happens, I will succeed. I have to, I do not have any choice, but, to do all that I can to make my life what it needs to be. Period!!


~Scott