cadyne

My grandpa died of a heart attack this morning. He had called me and my Aunt Gladys, but neither of us had our phones with us - I'm going to feel horrible about that forever, he left a message saying it was important that I call back, but I didn't get it in time and now I'll never get a chance to talk to him again. He raised me when my mom was in the hospital, and his sister and I are his only blood relatives left. I feel like shit for not having called him more, letting him know how important he was to me.

I'm flying home tomorrow morning for 2 weeks of emergency leave to plan his funeral and be with my family, so I probably won't be updating much. I have to get the body cremated and transferred from Oklahoma to Texas, then arrange a small ceremony and burial next to his son (my father) - I'm trying to get his military record so I can get a 2 person flag presentation by the Air Force to celebrate his service. I want to have the flag presented to his twin sister Gladys.

I have the world's best friends. Nat and Andrew and I are all hanging out together tonight so that I don't have to be alone, and Nat is driving me to the airport tomorrow at 6 a.m.

I'm going to miss him so much. I can't stop crying.