caddok

So she gets out of bed to go to the bathroom and when she comes back, without a pause, she says my name and that she loves me.

It's been under a month of knowing her in the flesh and even less than a month including the time we talked on-line before that. I should be terrified to hear that. She says she's scared of our situation and how she feels but that she feels safe, secure and comfortable with me in ways she never has before.

I should be scared too.
But I'm not. I know there is a honeymoon phase to a relationship and I know real relationships take work and I know ours will too - we are so different in so many ways - but I'm not afraid of it right now.
I'm looking forward to what might be coming. I'm not bothering to brace for what I can already see on it's way. It will be work, sometimes, but it will be worth it.

I guess I am afraid in a way but in the same way I'm confident and I feel secure in us.

We'll just have to wait and see how things go. I'll keep you posted.


-c