This weekend is not going too well for me.
I've been falling really far behind in my assignments at school, and I just can't motivate myself. At least I got the outline for my research paper done (other than the works cited), and that's due tomorrow. In high school we had senioritis, now I just have I-want-to-go-back-to-Seattle-itis. At least I get to go back in June, if only for a weekend.
I submitted the Combichrist set, but it was denied within 2 hours. That's the fastest response on anything I've gotten. Guess I'll try, try again. Hexxus is such a doll and said she'd touch up the photos for me and add the logo. I just have to get blank discs to send them to her! I do so adore her.
I'm trying to be understanding about the other thing that's really bumming me out. As I may have mentioned before, back in February (on Valentine's day actually), my best friend Redd got engaged. I told her from the very beginning, I want to be part of the planning, I want to help. I do get to be a brides maid, but not the maid of honor. That's the part that's killing me. I understand the the girl IS going to be maid of honor is more accessible (even though she's going to be in Japan over the summer while the planning is happening..), but I did offer to save up money and fly my ass down to Texas for a couple weeks to help plan. Plus this girl has only known Redd for MAYBE 3 years...where as I've known and been there, and supported her and loved her for 17. I even got her name tattooed. I was told I don't have to fly out over the summer, just lan on being there for the week around the wedding....It's heartbreaking to me. I feel like I'm missing out on so much, I just want my penguin back....(inside..thing..)
At least I know he takes care of her....
Am I overreacting? Should I just be happy as a brides maid?
Having the set denied bummed me out yesterday too. But, I'm going to try again with it. I really...just want to turn pink.
Corey's bad mood has been killing me too. I try so so hard to keep him happy, to keep him calm. The stress is really killing bth of us. Our money is getting really tight and it's just....it's hard. And I feel like shit about it because I don't have a job. Maybe I'll get the job at the theater he works in!
So..I'm asking for survival donations
I have a paypal-even a few bucks would help
xprettyxapocalypsex@yahoo.com
Please and thank you?
Still trying to set up paid shoots too.
I'm working on eating healthier and I'm going to start going back to the gym. I'm unhappy with the pudge I've gained with all of the stress. I also think Ben is finally going to finish my garter tattoo. I'm dying for more, but again, the money situation. I do need to go to a shop to get one particular one.
Here's a reminder of the unfinished garter (With REDD's name...)
and here is something I didn't add into the Combichrist set, but that was taken the same day
I think I'm going to go give my little Moliere fuzzbutt some love, then cuddle Astrid and finish my paper.
Leave me a happy?
I've been falling really far behind in my assignments at school, and I just can't motivate myself. At least I got the outline for my research paper done (other than the works cited), and that's due tomorrow. In high school we had senioritis, now I just have I-want-to-go-back-to-Seattle-itis. At least I get to go back in June, if only for a weekend.
I submitted the Combichrist set, but it was denied within 2 hours. That's the fastest response on anything I've gotten. Guess I'll try, try again. Hexxus is such a doll and said she'd touch up the photos for me and add the logo. I just have to get blank discs to send them to her! I do so adore her.
I'm trying to be understanding about the other thing that's really bumming me out. As I may have mentioned before, back in February (on Valentine's day actually), my best friend Redd got engaged. I told her from the very beginning, I want to be part of the planning, I want to help. I do get to be a brides maid, but not the maid of honor. That's the part that's killing me. I understand the the girl IS going to be maid of honor is more accessible (even though she's going to be in Japan over the summer while the planning is happening..), but I did offer to save up money and fly my ass down to Texas for a couple weeks to help plan. Plus this girl has only known Redd for MAYBE 3 years...where as I've known and been there, and supported her and loved her for 17. I even got her name tattooed. I was told I don't have to fly out over the summer, just lan on being there for the week around the wedding....It's heartbreaking to me. I feel like I'm missing out on so much, I just want my penguin back....(inside..thing..)
At least I know he takes care of her....
Am I overreacting? Should I just be happy as a brides maid?
Having the set denied bummed me out yesterday too. But, I'm going to try again with it. I really...just want to turn pink.
Corey's bad mood has been killing me too. I try so so hard to keep him happy, to keep him calm. The stress is really killing bth of us. Our money is getting really tight and it's just....it's hard. And I feel like shit about it because I don't have a job. Maybe I'll get the job at the theater he works in!
So..I'm asking for survival donations
I have a paypal-even a few bucks would helpxprettyxapocalypsex@yahoo.com
Please and thank you?
Still trying to set up paid shoots too.
I'm working on eating healthier and I'm going to start going back to the gym. I'm unhappy with the pudge I've gained with all of the stress. I also think Ben is finally going to finish my garter tattoo. I'm dying for more, but again, the money situation. I do need to go to a shop to get one particular one.
Here's a reminder of the unfinished garter (With REDD's name...)
and here is something I didn't add into the Combichrist set, but that was taken the same day
I think I'm going to go give my little Moliere fuzzbutt some love, then cuddle Astrid and finish my paper.
Leave me a happy?
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casper:
thank you darling. as for the wedding ish, I can say from my own personal experience that weddings are very stressful regarding planning and family and friends, and I wouldn't think much of it. She needs to keep her sanity, and it's not your time to try to grab the reins. Be grateful that you have her love.
disturbed_:
super cute woman !!!