caboose413

so back on my birthday me and my buddies went to islands and i invited my friend nicole, who i had a crush on since 9th grade and then eventually that went away but shit happens and now i like her again. when she got back to me she asked if she could bring a friend with her i said it was cool because i thought it was gonna be another girl and i was messing around with my friend edgar to spit his game, oh yeah i said that, and when we see her walking to the door with a guy..... now i was polite and nice and whatever but in my head there was like an atomic bomb goin off and people stealing candy from babies and then punching them in the face yeah so i was kinda pissed off and it kinda made my birthday suck. so yeah i thought maybe there "just friends" just trying to make myself feel better so wouldn't be curled up in a ball in corner crying. and by the end of the night i really did think that they were just friends......but tonight i went over to her house to watch the office and everything was cool and shit and then in comes the guy that she brought to my birthday dinner so in my head i was just thinking alright just gonna hang out and whatever. so later on that night they kissed, so pretty much at this time i just wanted to leave but i wasn't gonna be a fucking dick so i stayed a little while longer... on the drive back to my house i had the windows down blasting some fucking music, and speeding i was pissed but whatever i really don't give a damn any more(obviously not since i wrote this long ass shit about it but i want to make myself feel not like shit) and now i'm here sitting on my couch typing this.....don't really know what to do...