cabaretic

you think that people would have had enough of sillylovesongs i look around me and i see it isnt so
some people want to fill the world with sillylovesongsand whats wrong with that
id like to know cause here i go again

Love-song-news-reel

find out that now was the answer to answers that you gave later

she said
why are you
shaking your head like that?

i said
don't know
i just get into it sometimes

not exactly the answer im sure she wanted but nonetheless the headlines were full of the next made-for-tv-crisis and i was avoiding them like the plague avoiding my self and the egos and the

love doesnt come in a minute sometimes it doesnt come at all

great twitch
the great sleep having been firmly erased by
antioppracism boygirls and girlboys who make their own clothing
eat food having the consistency of pavement

1.chunky
2. gravel-y
3. sandy

they look at you as if youve killed your mother when you say you still eat flesh

this was out west and we were in a trailor after the embers had died down of the campfire i had been playing guitar and her eyes had rolled back into her head impressed and aroused all at the same time and i had noticed her earlier admiring my singing and playing with a bandanna on pulling back her hair and her freckles and her slightly separated front tooth and we walked to the

how can i tell you about my loved one how can you about my loved one
my girl done gone now my girl done gone oh yeah oh lord what have i done oh lord what have i done.

playing through my head the whole time during the act her eyes now

exhale inhale a footmassage growing more
twitch
shake
smiling
closed

if youre not with anyone else next time id love to

head dive
pulling back the folds
allowing better access
shaved

i love the cock
and so do i
and so do i

and i'm a big girl a big girl a big girl
she says these things to herself as if her own rhetoric will make her believe that she isn't anything more than a big girl who hates herself and lays forth
body acceptance dogma

only three girls raised their hands at plenary when i asked them if they thought they were beautiful and that makes me sad and just just

gives herself freely
like dinner mints
on pillows
at cheap motels

most of these arent even worth my pussy

stared at knickers
inside of pants

why do you wear them she says and you say <i>makes me feel more feminine and she says i dont understand
and you think

why are
you
shaking your head like that

twodays later it was gone it was gone my girl done gone oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah

talked to ten people knowing all the time it was over nothing more than window dressing moving on
to
the
next
one

outside the dance outside the main lodge
you knew it was over and she snapped and said
why do you hang around me
and tears began
to drip onto your tie

i am the parasite of this town name me someone who isnt to some degree or another

cried for thirty minutes in the arms of the one who had betrayed you so you thought and you didn't understand and she didn't understand and you didn't understand that she didn't understand and she didn't understand that you understood that you thought that you understood and she thought that she understood

betrayal.

after all the faces you have arranged to meet the faces how is it that you remember each detail
she says

and you say
i never forget a fuck

and you never do you never forget each subtle-ty nuance and half-truth whispered lie and

if youre not busy

not at the bar

and tell her the one you moved onto after that
told you tell her and
you tried to but she didn't listen

needed
s
p
a
c
e

why do you write things knowing it will get a response what you apologize for it you dont want me in your life if you werent prepared for all this

oh lord what have i done
oh lord what have i done

you think that people would have had enough of sillylovesongs i look around me and i see it isnt so oh no some people want to fill the world with sillylove songs and whats wrong with that i need to know cause here i go again


you moved on you moved
onto joni mitchell girl
hands and unsubtle sexual tension

massage workshop

awww
he said

you cradled her like a baby
after smoothing her face

youre very gentle
and all i want to do really
at this point is just make out

later it was
angry
hollow
no makeup
face

and i'm not going back and i'm not going back

youre all just a bunch of tourists
strong opinions
innocently delivered
(according to the unitiated)

little girl voice no one ever takes me seriously but you took her seriously
plans plans plans

admiration for the bellshaped hat
and the child
inside the wan face

the last time i saw sanity i said

if you need me
ill be at the bar

petite
eyes
flash
annoyancepain

you dont know you dont know you dont know anything

the whole time
you loved the cock
and she loved lots of things
(but you most)

who knows anymore you said you loved each other over
phone conversations lasting an hour or more every day for nearly three months

and what if you really need help
what if

awww sweetie im here for ya
but after a while even you weren't here
for much of anything

you were just gone

walking walking walking

[i>your day breaks your mind aches you find that all her words of

peace peace but there is no peace
nor joy norlove nor understanding nor radicalinclusion

this is not the best time we could have met

she smiled
you left
you walked

oh lord what have i done
oh lord what have i done