Sunday Nov 27, 2005

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Um.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone. I know its late, but....

So I come home Thanksgiving night and play World of Warcraft for 19 straight hours. Then I play XBOX 360 for 1 hour then I sleep for 17 straight hours. Now at 5:00am here, I'm still awake again.

Wow. I have FUCKED my sleep schedule up.

Huh.

That's the witches tit and that's about it.

Sunday Nov 20, 2005

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Hrmmmm.
kira:
i need to know if you are going to the sg detroit 3 year anniversary party/holiday party on dec 27th...if you could let me know here that would be super thanks... kiss kiss kiss

oh and yes the event will be 18 and over... kiss

Thursday Nov 17, 2005

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Kiss kiss. Bang bang.

Good movie.

Yep.

Wow.

tehpeanut:
i bet
ash:
thanks for your advice, but .. sadly, Im too big now to do anything like nude modeling or stripping. That woulda been the first thing Id have done!! I used to dance for years, but since the methadone .. Ive gained 40 pounds and I am definitely not in good enough shae to make money off my looks.

Im gonna try selling paintings, Ive already tried selling all my other shit. Thanks for the advice, my friend smile

Monday Nov 14, 2005

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Hmmmm.

No Vegas for now. Too long of a drive too much money. BUT I found a flight deal maybe that would cut costs in half. So I will still go. But not YET.

Soon though.

Damn.
timskin:
now vegas is a plan!!!

pretty sure you mentioned a party....

Monday Nov 14, 2005

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So I'm getting nervous now.

It really is looking like I'll be driving out to Vegas and back all my my lonesome. I put an ad on Craigslist for a rideshare too, but to no avail.

Soooo yeah. I'm getting nervous. Never driven anywhere or really been anywhere ALONE. By myself. EVER. So I'm nervous, yeah. But I can do this.

Ummmm....support. Leave comments of...
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desiderium:
Think of it as a good opportunity to reflect. That and listen to your favorite CDs and sing at the top of your lungs.
Take a map and drive safe.

Sunday Nov 13, 2005

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Tick tock tick tock.

Leaving for Las Vegas on Tuesday.

Woo-hoo. Can't wait to hit the open road and listen to my iPod. And think about how peachy my life is(nt).
oninotaki:
what time you leaving on tuesday? Oh we should get together sometime cause Im going out that way too and we should see if we get alongbiggrin
oninotaki:
where in clinton twp are you?

Saturday Nov 12, 2005

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This is the mother of all updates.


Here it is.


IT.
egon:
hey. if you need any info on the NW side of vegas (the area industrielle is talking about) feel free to ask. I live near rampart and charleston and know the are pretty well
tehpeanut:
hey sweetie pie...i saw your im the other day...i think i was sleeping when you did it and you left before i could talk to you...i think we need to set up another date

Friday Nov 11, 2005

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Why bother, really?

I'm just going to run away on my own one day not saying to anyone what, why, where I'm going. Because the pressure sometimes suffocates and I want to breathe freely again.

To go it alone....is a scary thought but one that brings fire to my veins once again.

Why bother, really?

Wednesday Nov 09, 2005

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Man. I am fucking BORED today.

Seems to be a common theme in my journal entries, huh?

Well, looks like I might be going to Vegas ALONE next monday. I'm going to check out neighborhoods, homes, apartments, and stuff. My buddy was gonna come with, but something came up.

Man, I don't want to go to Vegas ALONE!!!!! FUCK!

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desiderium:
I'm going to Vegas for Christmas!
emelaeth:
i live here in vegas ... just wanted to say hi ...

Tuesday Nov 08, 2005

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Monday Nov 07, 2005

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tehpeanut:
you look good in that pic...whose feeding you? tongue ooo aaa
tehpeanut:
haha....i know...im still laughing kiss

Sunday Nov 06, 2005

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LONG CRY FOR HELP AHEAD

Man, it is really rough being married. Especially when you've both been together for 8 years and have been the only person you've ever dated.

And especially when you've both started to move in different directions with different interests and different viewpoints on life. It makes it hard.

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darling69:
Im in the same fucken deal right now i want out so bad all i do is make my man miserable ,we do have our good days like everyone else but when fall its hard.
I hope your able to come to conclusion and work things out i know its possible after 13 years of some pretty fucked uo shit we still got love for each other ,the hard thing is he just get it .Living with this disorder is hell you never really know when its gonna snack your ass and it feels good or it feels horrible.
I have no family to turn to im on disability right now but havent applied for the monthly payments i just feel funny bout that due to the fact my huband can take care of us compleltly IM SO SADD my eyes hurt from crying i dunno wher the hell this came from i felt so happy and positive now i just wanna be distinct.
Im so sorry i havent much advice to give do take your meds i think that kinda balances you out if not try to find a new combo.
geez these subjects cango on forever if you ever wanna talk just hit me up try be positive for you anyway , i know its hard . smile
ash:
ugh, man Im so sorry to hear you're having these problems right now .. because it seems like NOW is the time you need her MOST, and shes just creating more problems.

Im not taking anyones side here, not even YOURS, and also .. Im not going to read through the posts everyone else has posted to see if their answers are anything like mine, it would take too long ... so if this just sounds like a repeat, then Im sorry .. but heres my advice:

You both need COUNSELING. I know, I know ... it might sound gay, but trust me on this, if u find a good counselor to help you both work through your issues, it WILL help. Sometimes it takes a mediator to help you both see whats fair and whats not. And even if you're skeptical ... just TRY it. If you love her and want to save your marriage, then you'll give it all you've got, right?

Secondly, are u on meds for your bipolar disorder? If you're not .. you NEED TO BE! There are a lot of great meds out there these days that REALLY help with the mood swings!! Ive known quite a few manic depressives in my day that were totally different ppl on their meds. If you're on meds right now .. and theyre not helping, you need to try something else, or a combination of something else.

Taking meds isnt neccessarily the BAD thing that everyone thinks it is, I dunno where that came from. Some people just *need* them.

And lastly, if you were using drugs when you guys met, then how can she expect you to not use them NOW? She knew what she was getting into .. and if u use responsibly, I dont see an issue there. You'll have to come to a compromise.

If you need to chat, Im here. Im a great listener and Ill talk your face off! Hope this helped
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