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There's a lot going on internally with me right now....
I don't want to come across as jealous, because I really don't feel like I am, but I can't help but feel like my boyfriend's constant texting other people when we are together is a little.... much I just don't know how to explain how I'm feeling to him without it sounding like I'm being jealous or whatever. I feel like crying because I want to spend time with him but I always feel like he's preoccupied with whatever is going on with all these other people (and unfortunately, that includes the ex whom he had a child with, whom it seems like he end up texting more than anyone else, and about meaningless bullshit no less too) and that I'm just not as important.
Then at work, I love the job itself, but it would sure be nice if me and the other admin (who has been there over a year already) could get the fucking raises that we DESERVE instead of the company founders and CEO go on fucking vacations about once a month..... oh sure, they can afford to go to California or Hawaii or wherever, but come payroll they have issues making it every damn time..... uhhhh, here's an idea.... MAYBE you SHOULDN'T be taking so many god damn vacations and actually work at getting your employees PAID ON TIME like you're SUPPOSED to, you stupid FUCKS!
I want to go back to school, but unfortunately could get the registration and application stuff done in time for this fall, which I blame myself for, but still I wish that it didn't have to be so damn complicated to get everything squared away to get going. And it doesn't help when the college "help" desk are raunchy bitches... ugh!
Don't know why, but everything seems to irritate and/or depress me more than usual lately.... *sigh*