bygbadwulf

Something is infected on my little toe, but I digress. I've been seriously considering taking up Olympic weightlifting. With any luck, I'll been going to college next semester, and I'll be studying to be a C.S. C. S. (certified strength and conditinoing coach). From what I've been told about the athletic department there, they may have a lifting team there. I know my numbers in those classic lifts aren't much (205 lbs in the sloppy C&J and a measley 145lbs in the snatch), but I want to bring them up. I've been aching for something to compete in again. I haven't played hockey since high school, pro wrestling took much time away from me being anywhere but traveling 24/7, and MMA fighting left me too beat up to work and take care of my boy. I need something to UNLEASH myself upon. I need something too use my skills, something to WORK for again. I need a goal again. I've been telling myself lately that I'm lifting simply too please myself, but all this improving my strength and not using it is like masturbation. I hate to say it, but I need to prove something to myself, I need to know, for myself, that this is all not worthless, that this is all not in vain, I NEED TO PROVE MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If anyone is confused, I'm sorry, I don't use this forum much for ranting, but lately things have been grinding on me and I just want to know I'm not going to lose myself to the oncomoing shitwave that will approach. I could die a happy man if I knew my warrior ways, my belief that a warriors place is no longer wasted in this world, will not die with me when I'm gone