buxxy

I keep having weird scary dreams about being chased around by half arachnids half crabs or half arachnid half chickens and i have arachnophobia so its fucking scary. its gotta mean something. maybe i feel like i'm trapped and can never get away? like i'll never move out of this fucking apartment... but i will anyways, i just joined a bunch of cool groups and i'm gonna try to not get upset by what people have to say...people make me mad a lot cuz i aint a people person and i believe a lot are very close-minded but i'm a very nice girl i swear!

i keep looking at all these beautiful sets with beautiful lighting and they are just perfect and i really wish i could do a set that looks super beautiful too. i'm going to start looking for photographers online. it's gonna be hard though cuz of my social anxiety disorder but i guess i'll live...

i'm applying to a beauty supply store today cuz i needs money and maybe i can meet some hot girlies if i get the job . i hope that fucking college bitch calls me, i wonder if i should call her cuz college starts on the 22nd. ok well i gotta go -Buxxy

edited: omg! the intro comment on my hopeful set says nov. 30 1999! haha wtf