This weeks homework has kinda made ma mad.. or frustrated or something!!
The topic this week thanks to @rambo @missy @lyxzen Is if we could go back in time and change anything what would it be?
Mostly what annoys me is all these blogs I see where people are like.."well nothing I wouldn't change anything, blah blah"
Honestly I think this is bullshit and a total cop out. You LIIEEEE!!
There is SOOOO much I would change.. and maybe not like any big situation or certain things happening but the way that I handled some situations sure, lets go back and re do those bad boys! stand up for myself more! Have a better understanding of certain situations before getting myself into big messes ya know? I would like to change the way I was or thought..
Like coming out to my parents.. and EVERYTHING that followed for the next couple years, I wish I had stood up for myself more. I wouldn't just sit there too scared to move, say anything or really breath while my parents yelled, demanded and screamed at me for why i was like this, why I lied to them for the 100th time about having a girlfriend or for keeping secrets about my feelings ect ect. I wish I had yelled back, stood up and taken control of those situations better instead of letting their words wash over me like so much disapproval and letting everything they said stab at my self esteem and being. As an example anyway..
But that's basically it.. There is soooo many times I wish I had stood up for myself either with my parents, in school, with friends, family even with past girlfriends! There is no way I'm going to sit and and be like yeah but those times really shaped who I am today and I have no regret, because that is shit. Sure they may of shaped me but doesn't mean I wouldn't change the way they went down. I wish I was the strong person I am back then and hell even now I wish I could stand up for myself better...
I wish I didn't let anxieties and control issues consume my life because of those times I let people walk over me.. IF I could go back and CHANGE all of those time I WOULD. be stronger! care less and try more to be happy.
I mean without trying to sound like you're totally all kool with the way everything in your life has been, wouldn't you agree to come extent?
End rant!
I really have no picture for this topic soooooooooooo have a selfie..
