Soooooooo ask me 5 years ago and my answer on kids would of been no, a big NO. The idea of finding someone who would want to raise a child with me and the idea that this kid would have to have 2 moms I just couldn't handle.
Since meeting my partner and getting engaged a small fire of desire for children has been sparked. My partner comes from a big family and wants one of her own and her confidence and certainty fuels this fire of mine.. Though thinking back this fire was once full a blaze.. when I was 13 a christian and jsut wanted to get married have sex and raise children.. but a big bucket of water doused this fire with my growing sexuality... and it was okay.. But now its back and it scares me!
I know if I do have kids it wont be for at least 5 year.. or so I keep telling myself but fact is I think about having kids all the time these days... Doesnt help that I work in a BONDS clothing store and I spend most of my days unpacking cute baby clothes and helping moms find clothes for their new borns or fitting them for maternity bras.
I also find myself being highly drawn to some of my favorite Suicide Girls who are super yummy mummies and I find them very inspirational... they are still everything I want to be, hot, sexy, unique, total babes and doing what they love AND they have this adorable creature who needs them and depends on them and my heart squeezes so tight at the idea that I could be them... Surprisingly enough its Suicide Girls that has made me want to be a mom? WEIRD but seriously I think its just made me realize I don't have to give up my whole self and everything I love to be a mom and there a few special gals here I want to mention that have brought me to this point..
First is @opheliacreep meeting her on this site while she was still pregnant was totally where this began for me because she was sooo gorgeous and carrying this tiny human and it sparked this interest in me that I had thought long died. her daughter Aura is so beautiful and I wish happiness of her little family <3
Secondly is @rambo who has just been a long time favorite SG of mine and watching (stalking) her pregnancy on instagram was a secret joy of mine when my partner was at work or asleep I would look at her photos as she grew and delivered her daughter Olivia and seeing photos of her tiny family it just warms my heart in a way that a few years a go wouldn't of.. such an amazing woman <3
And lastly @alorali who was up in till recently was just a mega big girl crush for me, in the kinda way that she is not only beautiful but you kinda just wanna be friends with her and hang out. It was only recently when I finally found her instagram page did I realize she had a son Hendrix and my heart just stopped at how more incredible she actually is, more so than I originally thought. And what has inspired me to write this blog.. Her life seems like pure bliss chicken and all <3
Clearly Im obsessed with SG moms and as scary as it is I love how its transforming my life and my goals for the future... I think my partner likes it too because I'm finally at the stage where I'm just as excited as her to start a family which I think you really need in a lesbian relationship... you need that extra drive as its not as easy to get pregnant as it is for male and female couple.. I know that when we're ready it'll happen and I hope to share it on SG like these beautiful woman have <3
Thank you
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