What seemingly small or inconsequential event changed your life in a major way?
@missy @rambo
I am late with my homework again! However, I really had to think about this one. Sometimes the ones you have to take the time to think about really mean something to you. So here goes......
A seemingly small or inconsequential event that changed my life in a major way was.....seeing the Suicidegirls Blackheart Burlesque show for the first time last year! It was such a fun time and I was so amazed of the confidence the lovely ladies showed when they danced. I saw lovely ladies with big boobs and small boobs, some thin and some thick...and they didn't seem to have a care or worry! I always have had the image of what the perfect woman should look like and to see ladies of all races and body types dance and show their confidence made me realize.....none of that matters! It was when the emcee for the evening @sunny suicide said "If you are interested in becoming a suicidegirl go to the merchandise table or on suicidegirls.com and apply! (it may not have been her exact words but it was a year ago lol).
I went online and looked at the free photos. When I saw the women featured in those photos and realized that there was such a wide variety of body types, races, etc featured, my support began to grow for suicidegirls. I saw suicidegirls was for breaking away from the norm and showing all women are beautiful. I saw that there was much love for what these women had the confidence to do.
Still being somewhat hesitant, I talk to one of my good friends (who happens to be a guy) about it. Being a lady with small boobs, I was sure I wouldn't be considered (in my mind, big boobs were in). I asked if there was a thing for women with small boobs. He said there absolutely was. Myself being floored by this, I started to have a little more motivation to apply. I remember sitting at the computer debating....should I? Shouldn't I? I asked him again. His words: "Go for it!" So I decided to give it a go. I said to myself, "I probably won't get accepted but I can at least say I tried." Well, I did and got an email with a username and password! I was excited just for that! I have always had low self esteem and constantly compare myself with other females (and often times say I am not as pretty as they are).
My next step was fill out paperwork and do a set. Once I had my set done and uploaded I thought "it probably won't get picked or they will probably say nope and it will go by the wayside. But at least I tried." If you notice I have a pattern and habit of saying this. I kept checking daily to see if anything came up about my set. Nothing. Oh well I tried. Then one day I logged in and went "my page looks different." Holy shit! My set is in the member review queue! Really? I told my friend and he was happy for me as well. I told a few other friends and were in the same "holy shit" boat as I!
So here I am now...a little over 2 weeks to go until my first set hits member review. I'm sure you can tell what my thoughts are going to be.....and that's a given. "It probably won't get a lot of love and definitely not set of the day...I'm sure I won't turn pink." My self-inflicted thoughts are going to be there...and I'm sure in time things may happen...some may not. Would I love to have a sotd and turn pink? Absolutely. It would be the biggest confidence boost I have ever had! I think that is everyone's hope on here! Even if I don't or it takes awhile, this site has earned my support and has helped my confidence grow (I would not normally take selfies so that is a big step!). I'm definitely planning on seeing the Burlesque show again in the fall! I am in full support of suicidegirls and have told my friends to apply and see the show! I hope to see my friends on here as well and their confidence shine through!
