buster_hymen

At times I'm not sure if I have a low grade form of bi-polar disorder, or if it's just a neurosis somewhere in my head, but I hate having periods where depression sets in on me from out of nowhere. Living the painfully simple life I do lead, once my world is introduced to something of interest, it tends to get fixated very easily. Combine that with my natural desire to UNDERSTAND EVERY-GODDAMN-THING that crosses my path, I have a bad ass habit of picking things to pieces instead of just sitting back and enjoying the moment.
Long story short. Met a great girl that's has a hell of a life story but very little free time on her hands. I enjoy her company, but hardly get the chance to. I tend to hide from my life and it's fuckeduptedness by wrapping myself in other people (preferably women) So let's recap......
I'm interested in someone I find fascinating but hardly get the chance to see or talk to. Her current life and past facts are mind-blowing the more I talk to her and see her, but I hardly get the chance to do either. I FIXATE on things I cram to understand and relate to.............I've lost 10 pounds in 8 days. I'm now in medical terms, dehydrated, malnourished and suffering from passing depression.

Any one got bullets for sale??