My whole life people have looked at me and thought, well that's just jon and he won't be able to accomplish that. The past year and a half has been tough. Heart broken three times. 2 of which from relationships and the other, well, wanting someone you KNOW and CAN'T have. It still bothers me till this day but i do what everyone expects me to do. Which is put on a smile and "be" happy. I can't stand the situtation and it hurts even more knowing the fact that i can't say anything to anyone except to ONE friend. I can trust her and she has been a true friend to me over the years in every sence of the word.
Anywho...back to the begining. There has been only 2 people in my life that has looked at me and thought, this guy can do this. He is able to. My boss at my first job at Wilson's Leather and a buddy of mine from work, Matt. Why is this? Only 2 fucking people! My own parents don't see me like that at all. I guess, lately, it's been really getting to me. I don't know what to do. I'm at a loss.
Loss for words
Loss of breath
Loss of anything to keep me from flying away in this goddamn god awfull mess.
I need some sort of tether.
I'm at a loss.
Anywho...back to the begining. There has been only 2 people in my life that has looked at me and thought, this guy can do this. He is able to. My boss at my first job at Wilson's Leather and a buddy of mine from work, Matt. Why is this? Only 2 fucking people! My own parents don't see me like that at all. I guess, lately, it's been really getting to me. I don't know what to do. I'm at a loss.
Loss for words
Loss of breath
Loss of anything to keep me from flying away in this goddamn god awfull mess.
I need some sort of tether.
I'm at a loss.