It is here in the me of the now, I find tremendous comfort in thoughts once spoken by me of a then.
"In a sudden realization, I felt as though I have again acted against my character. Temporarily leaving me feeling disempowered and distraught. Because I felt for an instance as though I had denied the overwhelming beauty and power of life, by not allowing life's sublime undertow to take me out to deeper water.
I have resigned, for the most part, to act within the best interest of this vessel in which I reside. As hesitation seems only to breed disconcerting thoughts towards unspoken passages and suspended exploits. But there exists no moment where regret or shame shadows even the transgressions of my past. I look back not in horror but reverence.
Bitten! By exhumed desires that serve to remind me that life is best lived as a banquet. That my best efforts are made in prodigious leaps and not in measured steps. I aim to rend asunder the path of a lifestyle engineered through Mother-May-I advancement and accept progress gains through a more volatile life of Red-Light/Green-Light.
What happens from this moment, I will not forget. And as I take, one of many sojourns in my life, I will always remember the incalculable joys and vehement spirit that existed in my soul. In reverence of the time where my body transpired such sweet sweat and life looked overwhelming, like the expansive ocean found in the arms of a lover."
