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Friday May 30, 2008

May 30, 2008
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Tears streaming,
Me wishing these were dreams streaming down my raw, red face.
Alone and cold, wrapped tightly between soiled sheets,
I wish I had not been so meek
Here in this bed that once also held you.

Hands crashing,
My arms lashing up against the walls and windows of this old, forgotten place.
Unable to push out the details of how I met you that one faithful day
That now seems so fucking far away
It still hurts.

Pain rising,
My desire yearning to be numbed by a drop of golden, sunshine love
That comes in a bottle down on aisle four
Down the street and around the corner at that faithful store
Where we traded kisses between aisles.

Pages turning,
My thoughts pouring over all the words - lies, you ever sent my way
I am confused on how you once cared
My fears of playing the fool have made me scared
Oh, how had I become so lost!


Anger seething,
Me watching you leaving for a life so soon worth living
Feeling even more discarded and dejected from what I helped create
Are you so stupid to commit this grand of a mistake?
What have you become?

Sorrow sewing,
It showing in my laboring breath and belabored moves
A once confident person. I was, I thought - so strong and sure
Anger, loss, I am all feelings now. A moving target, a constant blur
I see only a mirror's messy stain.

Time passing,
Me trying to keep my prying eyes from the spying sight and sound of you
You noisily banging about appearing so cruel
Realizing instead of a life better lead, feeling much less the fool
But still finding it necessary to say goodbye.

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