burtlo

The intensity of my dreams continues to increase. I have conversations and controls that seem rather astounding. I wake and for a moment wonder what it is that I'm doing and where it is that I'm going.

My senses come back to me later in the day, but ultimately I long to escape back into the dreams in which I now feel like I live...

I'm haunted by my former drama teachers.

They know as I stand before all of them that I haven't given my best. They know I didn't try as much as I could. I talked to one in my last dream and told her that some people just don't have "it". However some of us won't ever reach this perceived pinnacle because we just don't have...
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In a recent change of events, I will be home (Seattle) for the holidays. Though I don't have much planned. I felt it important to perhaps place an entry between now and halloween.

I've mistakenly ordered tickets to see Her Majesty The Decemberists the same night as the SG Burlesque. I wasn't extremely interested in attending the Burlesque show, but it seems the next event that the SG Seattle crew will make an appearance.

Despite better efforts from engaging in sexually gratifying and overly satisfying sex -- it happened anyways. I'm back on the junk and I sware I lost my mind before when I said I wanted to sware off the stuff . . . someone hacked my account, yeah?

More importantly academic activities are slowly converging on our "final" project. Leaving me about a month's time to...
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I'm tired, so tired
I'm tired of having sex (so tired)
I'm spread so thin
I don't know who I am (who I am)
~ Weezer

For most of my life, I've placed a huge emphasis on sex. I've been overly obsessed with my performance, methods, amounts, and measurability. I have to admit that on more than one occasion considering it a competition of skill....
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One night in Korea I found myself at the King Club. While I would be hesitant to subscribe any particular club to a particular crowd or genre of music, it seemed to fit the R&B/Hip-Hop bill... for most of the night. It was on occasion that I would start my evening there with friends. As the atmosphere lent itself to the legitimate club-outing. They had...
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If I ever leave a comment for a set that I've enjoyed, the ones that tug at the heartstrings (those things not to be confused by the cuntstrings or dickstrings), I do the best within my power to make it as eloquent, artistic, and poetic.

I allow the set to inspire the comment. I allow it to overtake me. It feels nice to form these...
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Kurt Vonnegut said "I do not propose to discuss my love life. I will say that I still can't get over how women are shaped, and that I will go to my grave wanting to pet their butts and boobs. I will say too, that lovemaking, if sincere, is one of the best ideas Satan put in the apple she gave to the serpent to...
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