burnz1down

Over a month ago me and a group of guy and girl friends decided we were going to go out to the Gentlemans clubs for my birthday. Now slowly one by one they have backed out making up a reason they can't go or just saying they can't. And maybe it is because I'm am one of the last single people in my group. So I guess I will be going out by myself tonight which sucks but you never know I might meet some one new tonight. I am also debating if I should still have my annual birthday party I throw at the local bar cause I pay over $125 for beer and other stuff. It's weird I have these parties to try to bring some joy to my life and bring friends together. but it's hard when half of your friends don't like the other half of them. so recently the parties seem to be stressing me out too instead of relieving stress. Well wish me luck on finding something new.