burntsolace

Well this is where the dice have landed.

I talked to Tanya today it turns out things are going better out there then I thought. I guess the time she had to pry the guy off her with a stick was more of annoyance then a sense of feeling threatened. Other then that she is more bored then anything else. She is stuck on a boat that is is dry dock, they are replacing the diesel engine. So until they fix it, she has off and on running water. She has off and on power, and no internet until they pick up passengers in about a week. But I talked to her today and on friday but on those two days I racked up about $150 in phone bills for her ($3 a minute) so it will only be TXT for a while, I can send them for free, but it costs her $.50 to send them back. But I found out I don't need to raise money to try and get her home, she can turn in her resignation anytime and they will fly her home. So I just have to make sure she doesn't put herself through anything she doesn't need to.

At the same time I survived work. I guess everyone is forgiven for getting totally shit faced once in a while. I found out they paid the cab driver $100 to take me home, which is 2-3 times what they should have. But my boss paid them back for it, saying he is gonna take half of it out of my next check, which I even doubt he will do.

But for the first time since she left I feel better about my life. I don't feel sick to my stomach anymore. I think I am gonna be okay and that I will make it. Now that I feel better about where she is I can go back to focusing on me. I cleaned the apartment after my friday night mis-adventueres, but I still have dishes to do and I will have to start making dinner for myself, and stop buying food. But I took a step in the right direction and even brought my lunch to work today.