burnbright

i have been scarce and i am sorry.
(and dammit! i missed an underscores thread ending!)

things are not of the good.

headaches every day.

my best friend moved here this weekend and something's been going on every night, but... i just can't.

i hooked up with the greatest girl last week and we can't seem to get our shit together to see each other before she leaves for three weeks.

i'm not going to get to see my mom in 2 weeks like i thought. and i was so excited. i miss my mom like nothing else. things have felt so bad and all i've wanted was my mommy.i have never iin 23 years gone such long stretches without seeing her. and i hate it. hate it. hate it. but she'll be here for awhile when my sister has her baby, so... that will be good.


things are not good, but they're going to get better. i'll be moving soon and work is going extremely well on a lot of fronts... we just have to tackle other problems. i just have to learn to do things differently.... i have to not let the past creep in when times get tough. it only makes it worse. a lot of things make it worse, really.


she falls apart in the avalanche
fades out like a dance
crawls back into bed
when it's over




p.s. any music critic who wrote a bad review of ryan adams' love is hell never listened to it on a rainy sunday afternoon or on a lonely night.