so i killed something today... beware your eyes... in fact, it's so gross, i'm just going to link the picture. ghosty found it in the bathroom a month or so ago when they had to redo my sink and floor. i never saw it except in the pictures he took and he DIDN'T KILL IT! (he's a girl.) so it's been MIA for awhile and finally it showed itself again... so it's dead now. took a shoe to it and then rinsed it down the shower drain. 
so nasty. i don't even want to be in the bathroom right now. it was also rather unhelpful when i told my best friend about it and she said, "oh, there are probably 10,000 more hanging around." no. no. no. there are no more. it is the same roach from before and now it is dead. the end.
day off. spent tending my gross cold sore that has suddenly fucked up my entire mouth and sleeping. yes, sleeping all fucking day practically, which is why i am up at 4am. i am almost convinced there is something wrong with me. almost. i mean, the strange sickness the other day, the cold sores, the tiredness, the sore throat... but i really don't want to go to the doctor right now. i have felt like i've spent way too much time at the doctor and would like to never again go back... except i have to because my med refill runs out next month. tricky bastards.
i have to figure out where i'm going to live come june. the lease is up and, while i love, love, love, love my apartment and it's in the most perfect location, i really could find someplace cheaper. i hate looking for apartments. hate it so much, in fact, that my mother and sister actually found this one for me. i just signed the lease. they did a pretty good job, i'd say....
hard to get the feel from one picture, but the living room's a pretty open space and there's hardwood floors, which is a must for me (especially with an old cat who tends to puke sometimes).
so... yeah. finding a new place is going to be difficult. any leads would be great.
on an entirely different note... i've been feeling a bit Out of Place, lately. not sure why. maybe it's the work transition coming up, maybe this weird sickness and being tired... i don't know... odd, for sure... perhaps i just need to get out. perhaps it's that i don't yet see the time when i will be able to pursue what i really want to... retail is fine for now, but it's not the career i want. i'm staying where i'm at for now for several reasons, including my sister's pregnancy. maybe i'm scared of being stuck here forever... maybe i'm already stuck in a rut...
hold your head high, heavy heart
so take a chance and make it big
'cause it's the last you'll ever get
if we don't take it, when will we make it?
i make plans to break plans
and i've been planning something big, planning something big, planning...
so nasty. i don't even want to be in the bathroom right now. it was also rather unhelpful when i told my best friend about it and she said, "oh, there are probably 10,000 more hanging around." no. no. no. there are no more. it is the same roach from before and now it is dead. the end.
day off. spent tending my gross cold sore that has suddenly fucked up my entire mouth and sleeping. yes, sleeping all fucking day practically, which is why i am up at 4am. i am almost convinced there is something wrong with me. almost. i mean, the strange sickness the other day, the cold sores, the tiredness, the sore throat... but i really don't want to go to the doctor right now. i have felt like i've spent way too much time at the doctor and would like to never again go back... except i have to because my med refill runs out next month. tricky bastards.
i have to figure out where i'm going to live come june. the lease is up and, while i love, love, love, love my apartment and it's in the most perfect location, i really could find someplace cheaper. i hate looking for apartments. hate it so much, in fact, that my mother and sister actually found this one for me. i just signed the lease. they did a pretty good job, i'd say....
hard to get the feel from one picture, but the living room's a pretty open space and there's hardwood floors, which is a must for me (especially with an old cat who tends to puke sometimes).
so... yeah. finding a new place is going to be difficult. any leads would be great.
on an entirely different note... i've been feeling a bit Out of Place, lately. not sure why. maybe it's the work transition coming up, maybe this weird sickness and being tired... i don't know... odd, for sure... perhaps i just need to get out. perhaps it's that i don't yet see the time when i will be able to pursue what i really want to... retail is fine for now, but it's not the career i want. i'm staying where i'm at for now for several reasons, including my sister's pregnancy. maybe i'm scared of being stuck here forever... maybe i'm already stuck in a rut...
hold your head high, heavy heart
so take a chance and make it big
'cause it's the last you'll ever get
if we don't take it, when will we make it?
i make plans to break plans
and i've been planning something big, planning something big, planning...
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i need your phone # again...
hey! i got a new phone OK!
geez.
noooo, you're not getting rid of the apartment are you?!?! It's so pretty! And I never got to say goodbye. We spent such a wonderful 3 days together... *cries*
lol.