buriedinthesand

hello
i don't really know to whom i'm speaking, and i think, therein lies the comfort.
in words shared with no one in particular as an audience of choice.
i am working so much lately. i work about 70 hours a week, spread out over seven days...it is wearing me thin..it comes down to a choice between whether or not i want to cultivate my self, my passions, my little loves of specific books or wonderful lyrics by heartbroken songsters...or my massive need to sleep.

i will be here until december 25th, merry christmas to leave here. i will be so happy to leave this place that is nearly completely devoid of all beauty...surrounded mostly by metal..metal walls, metal doors, metal beds..no colors outside of white paint, blue linoleum and beige walls.
do they want us to end our lives here?
do they want to remind us that even though we are free to do what we want, when we have the time to do so, we aren't really free..we are still railed in by rules and regulations, like limits to electrical appliances and no tape, just magnets, no candles or incense...but one good thing
i just found ot i can get a fish as a pet.