so yeah work saturday night completely wore me out due to actually having to work instead of sitting on my ass in the ER. i slept all day yesterday. woke up, went to work, and just dragged ass all night long. atleast it was slow. i just feel like utter shit right now. not sick or anything like that. just more of a depressed, bored, lonely feeling. and i cant fucking stand it.
my SG account will lapse on the 16th. i cannot afford to pay it right now. i have lots of other things that must get paid off before this site. and i just dont have the money to pay everything. hell i can barely afford to pay half of it. i need a new job. one where i actually get paid a good amount of money for doing a job i enjoy and one that should get paid more then people would think. security pays shit. its a fun job, someone has to do it, but i am fed up with getting my paychecks fucked up by this bullshit company. i am tired of putting effort into a job that doesnt give a rats ass about me. i am tired of getting fucked over hour wise, and pay wise, and respect wise. i want and need a job that will pay me what they say they will pay me. not some fucked up company that gets paid by the hospital $16 to pay me, and then only gives me half of that as my pay and keeps the rest for themself. it is complete bullshit. if the hospital is paying that much to have me work there, i want that fucking money. now i know people say that money cannot buy happiness, but goddamnit i can make lots of headaches go away. especially debt. and right now, thats all i care about. getting rid of my debts. i have no area to grow in this job, i cannot get a raise for shit, i have to fight to get a raise, or time off, or even a promotion. they treat me like a pawn. i am just fed up with bullshit.
i think i am going to quit my job and tell them to go shove it. i need help figuring out what skills i have and what i can do to get a better job.
eh whatever, i dont know why i bothered to type all that, i know its probably not gona get read or anything. but i needed to bash away on the keyboard and vent some since im the only person i ever see outside of work. i have no one to vent to.i am just alone. all my life consists of is working, sleeping, and working more.
eh whatever. i need to get away from this headache and just go sit in a corner somewhere and think.
oh and check this shit out yo
my SG account will lapse on the 16th. i cannot afford to pay it right now. i have lots of other things that must get paid off before this site. and i just dont have the money to pay everything. hell i can barely afford to pay half of it. i need a new job. one where i actually get paid a good amount of money for doing a job i enjoy and one that should get paid more then people would think. security pays shit. its a fun job, someone has to do it, but i am fed up with getting my paychecks fucked up by this bullshit company. i am tired of putting effort into a job that doesnt give a rats ass about me. i am tired of getting fucked over hour wise, and pay wise, and respect wise. i want and need a job that will pay me what they say they will pay me. not some fucked up company that gets paid by the hospital $16 to pay me, and then only gives me half of that as my pay and keeps the rest for themself. it is complete bullshit. if the hospital is paying that much to have me work there, i want that fucking money. now i know people say that money cannot buy happiness, but goddamnit i can make lots of headaches go away. especially debt. and right now, thats all i care about. getting rid of my debts. i have no area to grow in this job, i cannot get a raise for shit, i have to fight to get a raise, or time off, or even a promotion. they treat me like a pawn. i am just fed up with bullshit.
i think i am going to quit my job and tell them to go shove it. i need help figuring out what skills i have and what i can do to get a better job.
eh whatever, i dont know why i bothered to type all that, i know its probably not gona get read or anything. but i needed to bash away on the keyboard and vent some since im the only person i ever see outside of work. i have no one to vent to.i am just alone. all my life consists of is working, sleeping, and working more.
eh whatever. i need to get away from this headache and just go sit in a corner somewhere and think.
oh and check this shit out yo
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thelibra:
athf sucks ass and makes me feel dumber...so yeah. 
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