i have this strange feeling lately. i feel like what im doing is the right and best thing to do, but at the same time i fee like im making an awful mistake. maybe im just lonely...or stressed out. could be both. how do you know when a friend is really your friend? besides the obvious i mean. how do you know if your friend will sacrifice something for you when the time comes? i wake up happy and grateful and alive and as the day goes on, i feel less and less grateful and more angry. it sucks when you have to make a decision that will hurt half the people you love but will make the other half happy. oh wait! im on the rag! this will go away in a week! it better anyway...
