buffy

Hello I have been in a weird place in my life lately, at least it is how I feel. I was starting to not be a "party girl" anymore. I stopped stripping for awhile and had been working a "regular" job just doing basic office work and customer service. I liked it for awhile. I like getting a pay check every week and I like knowing how much I make. I turned 25 this past July. That was actually hard for me as silly as that sounds. Don't get me wrong, I know I am very young, but I had that feeling of being in my mid twenties I guess...and not being 21 anymore. Haha I don't have any children like a lot of people I know. I may never have children, if that is even what I want. I am NOT thinking about children right now. There is no way I could afford that! Anyways, I did get married on September 14th! Getting married was not as big of a deal to me as some people make it out to be. I feel like relationships do come to a point where you just want to be with that person or you don't. If one or the other want to get married then that is what you have to decide. I am happily married and I hope I am for many many years to come. It isn't for everyone. It is so important to have trust, probably the most important thing to have in my opinion.....and to know what each others thoughts on things are. You have to be in the same boat. I do have a few wedding photos I will share, since I have had requests!

I get so off subject and I am sure many of you will thing this blog is boring.....
I ended up quitting my "regular" job soon before my wedding. They weren't letting me have days off that I needed to have off right before I got married. I don't understand companies. They want you to give up your life and important things you have to do just to work for them. Whatever! I was starting to miss working in the strip club too. Stripping and I have a love hate relationship!!!!!!! I think that is how a lot of people are about work though. I have been stripping in Dayton,OH. It isn't bad. I like getting all dolled up! All was going wonderful until I got into a car wreck a couple weeks ago leaving the club. I had been drinking some of course. I hit a power pole going about 40. I don't even know how it happened. I really don't. I shouldn't have drank and then drove. I have already beat myself up about it so much. I got an OVI and I got arrested of course and they took me to jail. My new husband had to come bail me out. Sometimes I feel like a failure and like I am no good. This is my second OVI now. I have an attorney, who I have already paid a lot of money to. So now I am a newlywed and used a lot of our wedding money we got on a laywer so I don't go to jail. I will be okay only because I have to and there is no other choice. Right? My Husband is the only person who tells me that things are going to be okay and that I am not a terrible person. I want to believe him but it is hard for me to. I always fuck up. I don't want to feel the way I do about myself but most of the time I just feel like a no good stripper. AND I SHOULDNT FEEL THIS WAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have a fuck everybody midset now. My Mother and my Aunt act SOOOOOOOOOOO mad at me. It is whatever. I always have and always will do what I want. I pay for my mistakes. I just wish people weren't so judgmental. I have no license now and I totaled my car. I will get a new one eventually. I have been so sore.

SOOOOOO sorry for all the boring shit!!!!!!! I feel better today than I did all of last week so hopefully things are looking up. In my mind, I can make things be looking up. That is what I believe.





I am loving my blonde hair!!!!!!!!!!!!

Most of my favorite ladies right now :::::: Check them out!


Bounty


Bully


Ilanna


Jamity


Kemper


Marlene


Patton

The last set I shot, "Bonnie", is in MR and if you haven't seen it, you should.




Here you go, a few bachelorette/wedding pics















Peace & Love,
Buffy




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