buckknuckle

So I had this ear infection. I've had ear infections before, but this time it made me high. I don't drink to get drunk, and I quit drugs when I was a teen ager. What I'm saying is that I don't like feeling and thinking in any other way that how I feel and think normally. So anyway.... this ear infection. I felt like I was stoned for a month. Paranoia, delusions of granduer, incredible highs, depressing lows and the inability to concentrate on anything. I couldn't work, I couldn't even watch TV. A few days into the weirdness I went to a doctor. She told me that my ear infection was deep in my inner ear which controls equilibrium, causing a condition called vertigo. No, not the comic book publisher (a subsidiary of DC Comics), but "a disordered state which is associated with various disorders (of the inner ear) and in which the individual or the individual's surroundings seem to whirl dizzily". I'll have you know that at no time did I whirl dizzily, I just felt stoned.

I took antibiotics to clear up the infection... but the crazy high feeling lingered for another three weeks. My doctor suggested seeing a shrink. My friends suggested Xanax. I decided to see where it led me. I made some interesting art, wrote several fucked up emails and had conversations with people that I don't remember. The crazy feelings come and go to this very day.