Okay, things aren't really as dire as all this, but recently I've just rediscovered one of my favorite films, The Girl On The Bridge, and this monologue from the opening scene with Vanessa Paradis (that's Mrs. Johnny Depp to you) just seemed to fit my mood:
"I've never been useful or precious to anyone, or happy, or even really unhappy. I guess you're unhappy when you lose something, but I've never had anything except bad luckWhen I was little all I wanted to do was grow up. As fast as I could. But I don't see the point of it all. Not anymore. Getting older. I see my future like a waiting room in a big train stationOutside, hordes of people run by without seeing me. They're all in a rush, taking trains and cabsThey have somewhere to go, someone to meetAnd I sit there waiting."
In other words, rejection sucks, Beavis.
"I've never been useful or precious to anyone, or happy, or even really unhappy. I guess you're unhappy when you lose something, but I've never had anything except bad luckWhen I was little all I wanted to do was grow up. As fast as I could. But I don't see the point of it all. Not anymore. Getting older. I see my future like a waiting room in a big train stationOutside, hordes of people run by without seeing me. They're all in a rush, taking trains and cabsThey have somewhere to go, someone to meetAnd I sit there waiting."
In other words, rejection sucks, Beavis.