I talked to my mummy today. I knew there was something going on with my father. Evidently he has been trying to get the lawyers in the office next to his to move for awhile so that he can expand his own office into their space. He thought they were caving and then yesterday they decided that they wanted to stay. So I guess he was having a little anti-lawyer moment. Why does everyone hate lawyers so much.
I have an appointment at 11:30 this morning to talk to the financial aid gurus at New York Law School -- A gave me a pep talk before he left this morning...but I had already decided on Wednesday that I wasn't going to let anything get in my way now and made an appointment then for today. I seriously thought about getting back into promotion work but honestly, I know that I can't do that on the level that I'd need to do it in order to get through law school. It is a full-time job and the stress level is ridiculously high...plus, it puts me back into a world that I don't want to be in anymore. There was a reason that I stopped. Moreover, the point is for me to be as close as possible to the top of my class at the end of my first year so that I can transfer "up." I can't do that if I have to spend four or five nights a week in nightclubs. Law school isn't going to be like undergraduate studies. But I'm going to pull this off.
S keeps popping back up into my life. I can't decide whether I'd like him to just go away or if I appreciate the fact that he hasn't gone away completely. Right now, I want him to go away. But he has something of mine that I want back. I need to see him in order to get it back. I don't want to see him right now because...well, because. Times change so much, but I still kind of jump when I get a tm or an e-mail from him. There is a curious intrigue with him that I know will never really go away, even if I'd never do That again. We're so similar. Intrigue. That's the only word. Still, I need It back. I can handle it.
Me playing around with my camera taking some night shots from A's balcony:
Using a new camera is hard. Well, for me...since I don't know what I'm doing...YET. :o) That is what this summer is for.
I love waking up to sunshine. My pillow. Drinking tea in bed. Knowing that it is okay to look all sleepy haired and rumpled in the morning.
Okay, off to talk to the Powers That Be. Maybe I can even sit in on a class this afternoon. The great thing about New York Law School is that it is off the 2/3 line which makes staying in my apartment much easier! This also means that I will really have to find a new roommate for the academic year. I guess I need to have that talk with my roommate soon. I suppose I should try to have someone move in in August or September... I thought for a moment that it would "make sense" to try to find another law student to be my new roomie, but on reflection I don't think that is a good idea. I need someone who is NOT tied into the law school environment. Someone who will help me keep perspective. Someone who will occasionally remind me that there is Life outside of the immediate drama that will occupy my law school universe. I need ALISON. She'd be the perfect roommate, but she'll never move back to NYC. *miss her*
May 10 cannot get here soon enough! I hope that this time around she and A can really meet for real. We were talking about that a few days ago. She met him in passing once. Hopefully, this time around they can actually hangout together. What could be better?! Two of my all-time favorite people getting to know each other. Plus, I think he's going to sit-in on my SG hopeful shoot on May 11. I simply cannot say no to him. :::giggle:::
Okay, off I go. *hugs all around*
Oh, go listen to "The Sky is Crying" by Robert Johnson. He's my current Can't-Listen-To-Anything-Else.
I have an appointment at 11:30 this morning to talk to the financial aid gurus at New York Law School -- A gave me a pep talk before he left this morning...but I had already decided on Wednesday that I wasn't going to let anything get in my way now and made an appointment then for today. I seriously thought about getting back into promotion work but honestly, I know that I can't do that on the level that I'd need to do it in order to get through law school. It is a full-time job and the stress level is ridiculously high...plus, it puts me back into a world that I don't want to be in anymore. There was a reason that I stopped. Moreover, the point is for me to be as close as possible to the top of my class at the end of my first year so that I can transfer "up." I can't do that if I have to spend four or five nights a week in nightclubs. Law school isn't going to be like undergraduate studies. But I'm going to pull this off.
S keeps popping back up into my life. I can't decide whether I'd like him to just go away or if I appreciate the fact that he hasn't gone away completely. Right now, I want him to go away. But he has something of mine that I want back. I need to see him in order to get it back. I don't want to see him right now because...well, because. Times change so much, but I still kind of jump when I get a tm or an e-mail from him. There is a curious intrigue with him that I know will never really go away, even if I'd never do That again. We're so similar. Intrigue. That's the only word. Still, I need It back. I can handle it.
Me playing around with my camera taking some night shots from A's balcony:
Using a new camera is hard. Well, for me...since I don't know what I'm doing...YET. :o) That is what this summer is for.
I love waking up to sunshine. My pillow. Drinking tea in bed. Knowing that it is okay to look all sleepy haired and rumpled in the morning.
Okay, off to talk to the Powers That Be. Maybe I can even sit in on a class this afternoon. The great thing about New York Law School is that it is off the 2/3 line which makes staying in my apartment much easier! This also means that I will really have to find a new roommate for the academic year. I guess I need to have that talk with my roommate soon. I suppose I should try to have someone move in in August or September... I thought for a moment that it would "make sense" to try to find another law student to be my new roomie, but on reflection I don't think that is a good idea. I need someone who is NOT tied into the law school environment. Someone who will help me keep perspective. Someone who will occasionally remind me that there is Life outside of the immediate drama that will occupy my law school universe. I need ALISON. She'd be the perfect roommate, but she'll never move back to NYC. *miss her*
May 10 cannot get here soon enough! I hope that this time around she and A can really meet for real. We were talking about that a few days ago. She met him in passing once. Hopefully, this time around they can actually hangout together. What could be better?! Two of my all-time favorite people getting to know each other. Plus, I think he's going to sit-in on my SG hopeful shoot on May 11. I simply cannot say no to him. :::giggle:::
Okay, off I go. *hugs all around*
Oh, go listen to "The Sky is Crying" by Robert Johnson. He's my current Can't-Listen-To-Anything-Else.
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