wow...everytime I try to update I draw a blank..
do I...write a poem...neh
talk about friends that no one here knows..neh..why bother?
living really far away from everyone really bites.
everyone else posts about what club they went to with so and so who also happens to be a member...
Do I know anyone on this site? nooooo...
Everyone lives in portland oregon
screw portland maine right?
yep and I couldn't agree more...it sucks here
maine? where?
isnt that like...wilderness?
almost...
zzzzzzzzzzzz
and to top it all off I'm nowhere near 21 yet.
jeeeeesus...
oh yeah and dont forget big and fat and pregnant now....
talk about being alienated...
what to do what to do...
any suggestions?
awww I'm so bored and broke and now I'm bummed because like two people have visited me in the past week.
my pug has an eye ulcer
so she has been so sad and pitful with one big swollen eye, and I'm all hormonal and I keep crying.
oh yeah..and no one is bidding on my art..It looks like I'll be making about three dollars for two weeks worth of work...how ...unsettling...depressing...and humbling.
I just want to cuddle and read poetry and listen to ....listen to mazzy star....and drink chai with friends. and try to find mars...
you know yesterday was my birthday, and mars was the closest to earth its been in like 60,000 years. I think thats pretty extraordinary.
everything is so mediocre. stale. familiar.
im brimming with thoughts but none in a communicable way...for instance right now I'm thinking about the litlle white sparkly lines on the wall when water reflects. Like in an indoor pool or cave.
not exactly a conversation starter..I am such a space cadet.
poetry instead
***************************************************
Im so full of wanting
but I tend to dissapoint
I cant see speaking
when no one gets the point
so here i am quiet
waiting
anticipating a change
in the weather
in the air
holding my breath for something remarkable
marking the days on the calendar
with a pink neon magic marker
feeling the heaviness of those pink x's deep in my belly
time passes
heavy with reason and
solidarity
like pears and syrup in a tin cup
sweet
round
heavy
single
cold
***************************************************
much love
ps. i promise ill be a little more positive the next time i update..i had to vent...thank you.
do I...write a poem...neh
talk about friends that no one here knows..neh..why bother?
living really far away from everyone really bites.
everyone else posts about what club they went to with so and so who also happens to be a member...
Do I know anyone on this site? nooooo...
Everyone lives in portland oregon
screw portland maine right?
yep and I couldn't agree more...it sucks here
maine? where?
isnt that like...wilderness?
almost...
zzzzzzzzzzzz
and to top it all off I'm nowhere near 21 yet.
jeeeeesus...
oh yeah and dont forget big and fat and pregnant now....
talk about being alienated...
what to do what to do...
any suggestions?
awww I'm so bored and broke and now I'm bummed because like two people have visited me in the past week.
my pug has an eye ulcer
so she has been so sad and pitful with one big swollen eye, and I'm all hormonal and I keep crying.
oh yeah..and no one is bidding on my art..It looks like I'll be making about three dollars for two weeks worth of work...how ...unsettling...depressing...and humbling.
I just want to cuddle and read poetry and listen to ....listen to mazzy star....and drink chai with friends. and try to find mars...
you know yesterday was my birthday, and mars was the closest to earth its been in like 60,000 years. I think thats pretty extraordinary.
everything is so mediocre. stale. familiar.
im brimming with thoughts but none in a communicable way...for instance right now I'm thinking about the litlle white sparkly lines on the wall when water reflects. Like in an indoor pool or cave.
not exactly a conversation starter..I am such a space cadet.
poetry instead
***************************************************
Im so full of wanting
but I tend to dissapoint
I cant see speaking
when no one gets the point
so here i am quiet
waiting
anticipating a change
in the weather
in the air
holding my breath for something remarkable
marking the days on the calendar
with a pink neon magic marker
feeling the heaviness of those pink x's deep in my belly
time passes
heavy with reason and
solidarity
like pears and syrup in a tin cup
sweet
round
heavy
single
cold
***************************************************
much love
ps. i promise ill be a little more positive the next time i update..i had to vent...thank you.
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sorry, this is kind of a late response.