brookeish

I am soooooooooo stressed out lately. I try to keep a big fat smile on my face so that everything will go smoothly, but it doesn't always work. I have been doing my best to keep up morale for everyone around me, but inside I am about to lose it.

I've been working 10 hours minimum per day on my work days and about 4 on my days off. I have been trying to keep up with things at work and then when I come home, I have to deal with all sorts of other drama. Krysti (my roommate) is pretty much constantly mad about something, I just got my dog from my exboyfriend's house, and the apartment complex wants a $450 deposit by Saturday, my social life is pretty much non-existant, and the people I DO see send me mixed messages and just put my head and heart in a state of udder confusion.

Things in my life are supposed to be good. I just got promoted, I'm healthy, I have been making all sorts of new friends, I am almost old enough to go do whatever I want... so then, why are there so many things going wrong for me internally?

And also, why do I feel so fucking unloved?

..oOo..