brookeish

I know what I want. I just thought you could be a part of it. I see now that you can't I see now that you could never be. you could never love me the way i deserve to be loved i could have loved you unconditionally i would have done anything for you you will never find a person in this entire world who will make you as happy as i could have made you you will never find another person who will see you the way that i see you. no matter who told me i was crazy or who told me they could never deal with you, i would always smile. fuck them, i thought, i love this man, and they don't have to worry about it because i will never stop. as long as he and i can hold it together that's all that matters... it doesn't matter what you think, or who you think i should be with. it doesn't matter that you think he's difficult or has anger management problems... fuck you, you're not me. we will be together forever and we will be way stronger than you could ever be. fuck you be alone forever. don't ever let me catch you wishing you were me. you don't want me to tell you i told you so.. you don't want me to make you regret your life. it's a good thing he and i found each other, you know... we're such a great fit. i balance him and he balances me.. we keep each other grounded. i would stand by his side no matter what. i would be there for him and support him even if i didn't entirely agree with him because thats what true lovers do. and he means the world to me. as long as i have him, you could never hurt me. there are only 2 people in this world who matter when i close my eyes. he and i.

You could never understand the bond that he and I have in my head if I were in charge, I could hold this together forever. I would give it my all I could make the world stand still. I would never leave. I would be the rock. The "something to fall back on." The permanence of this displacement has left me feeling awkward, and more alone than recent thoughts would warrant.
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